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"Abah ada kat bawah!" said Chae. And therefore, none of Abah's kids will go downstairs. "Where's your book?" asked Mrs. Thilagavathi. "Terlupa," a girl replied. "Where's your book?!" asked her again, with a slight higher tone of voice. "Terlupa," she repeated and started to sob. "Where's your book?" the woman repeated the question but this time, she asked to the boy that sat next to the girl she spoke earlier to. "I forgot," he replied. "Now, where's your book?" she asked to the girl again. "I forgot," and then, she bursted into tears, as usual. Few years after that... "Verb is an action word," said Mrs. Leong. "Plural and singular..bla bla bla..." she continued, and the same girl, just listened and started to understand more and more regarding that foreign language in once in a week, until the next three(3) months. Time passes by.....

When I accidentally deleted the most legendary Facebook profile picture. I am really....... *cry It was a picture with my most beloved bestest cousin, Ya, from Raya 2009. With the most artful comments. ANd I think with most likes from random citizen.....  Sob sob.... Until this moment, I still cannot remove my shock. WHY!!????????????? Why didn't I read carefully.... SEDIH ABADI....

*Warning : The way we behave toward family and friends are different, ADMIT THAT PEOPLE. So, practically, this entry is only referring to my life with friends. Thank you. Appendices From our littlest Su~ From Ya~ *missin' her From Atiqah D. ~*out of box accompany .......sweet? *raise eyebrows Well I did received few feedbacks, but, it's just not style my to be happy over such matter. I mean, it's a compliment thingy, right? Seriously, I trained myself since I wasn't even born onto this planet earth, though, to not to receive compliments easily. To me, most of the time, or even, everytime, compliments are meant to 'kill' people, especially to myself. I will be spoilt. Euww.  But, I know when I am really sweet, and when I just fake it out. Usually, everything is depend on how I am treated by one. Freaking people off during the first meeting without any concrete reasoning, I repeat, CONCRETE REASONING, is so not my way of life, but o...

Rase macam lame dah blog ni tak chill up. Well well, let see..nak chill pasal ape eh? Hmm, last week gi tengok wayang ngan Mimie, tgk citer Kami Histeria. (Aaaa, boleh lah..)Tu lah ade la cakap ngan Mimie, "Noni kalau wayang, prefer tengok citer Melayu. Tapi, itulah still bukan sume citer melayu. Hado pelakon Noni suke je la. Dulu, zaman Mr. Cinderella lah hape, Noni ngan Mariam, tak penah miss." Hahaha. Name cashier tu pon macam kite. Hua hua hua~ (tade kaitan) Seriously, maybe takut tak paham kot kalau citer English. Sampai la mase tgk Tron legacy tiga(3) tahun lepas secara beramai-ramai ngan cousin(#leRAHMAH's) kat Jusco, Penang, time Along Fazrol kawen. Time tu, boleh tak, macam tak paham kenape kite boleh paham citer tu. Weird me. Or maybe, sebenar otak memang dah makin pandai..maklum la, dah abis diploma...hua hua hua..Anyhow, Kami Histeria tu kite tengok sebab ade Fazura. Sejak zaman Gol and Gencu lagi minat giler ngan die. (Minat dan menjadikan idola ad...

Love this song so much. For all my life, I think I was the easiest person to fall sick compare to my siblings. Or perhaps, I was one a very good exaggerator, ahakz. Don't mention about my school attendance, I hate school anyway. It's cool enough that I managed to go to school four(4) times in a week. That's why boarding school was never a choice of mine. I love going to clinic, especially the private one. We know that we pay more for the service, right? So, kinda make useful of it most of the time. How? I didn't sit still and let them inspect me just like that. Usually, I attempted to hold a conversation. I love two(2) ways communication, and they happened to enjoy to have patient like me. *grin I had a best friend who always listened to all my petty stories, at least once a month while I was in UiTM Sarawak back then. And yeah, he was the UiTM's doctor. If I could have my medical history card with me, I am so sure, you can see the high frequency...

This is so a quick one. I LOVE HIM T~T He looks so handsome~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't post this in Facebook duh~ I don't want the WHOLE world to know this.....(DUH~)I mean, DIRECTLY post it, you know ..........(SUPER DUH~) But I think, I am getting much much girlish(F***ing DUH~) I miss him!! And I know......it's not possible anymore(well, from the way he behaved toward me at least... ~DUH) He looks so hot with more fats~ DON'T GET SKINNY ANYMORE~!!! :D  DON'T WORRY DARL~ i'VE BEEN 'WATCHING' OVER YOU~ >.< BUT THESE TIME AROUND, I'LL NEVER INTERFERE ANYMORE, SINCE YOUR SMILE IS THE BEST SMILE, I BELIEVE. NO MORE DISTURB. So, DEGREE............please come to mommy faster..........the only way I can completely let go of him from my mind.(AMIN) I hate being like this!  =.= Why heart....WHY!!!!?????????? *snort Listen to my heart beat~ Lub Dub Lub Dub~ lalalalala *Currently, your happiness is my s...

As I thought this new year started with cool, who knows, the path is suddenly get rough. *sigh After almost three(3) years of trying, I think I come to a stage where, I have to re-think on my life purpose. Maybe, I should just face the fact that, whatever is in my mind right now, is not 'belong' to me. I don't think I can handle me, regretting all my almost-useless efforts, once I am twenty-seven(27) years old. By month, I just turned into twenty-four(24), so, according to the original plan, I am still not to late, to pull my handbrake, and make U-turn. And suddenly, I started to have these questions pop-up in my mind. What's my purpose? Wealth? Fame? Seriously, I tasted all. And I don't think, that's what I'm looking for. Oh yeah, there was this mission of 'helping' somebody's out, but, lately, it seems like I was thinking about these people too much. Whereas, I need myself to care my own self. Hmm...have you ever experienced like this? The...

As I look at many of my previous entries, I just realized that I do love myself a lot. No need to search for hard example, even the title of this particular entry is one good example of what I'm trying to say, Cara "saye" berkawan. Ouh...seriously, who give a s**t about that 'saye'? But, since I first started this blog with the intention to clear some of weird things in my life not long time ago, so, I guess, those who have followed me, since the day I started to publish entries daily, they should already understand how this blog differs from any other. Frankly typing, I am one of a kind~ Ahakz~ Honestly, this is my third attempt to write for this entry, and I used my native language. But, you see, when I use something that is mine(the language, get it?) I tend to have no fear at all, hence, the direction of the writing will go nowhere, plus, the spell and all just as sucks as the story itself. And eventually, I, myself, have no idea what was I trying to c...

... ..... .... Am I? For those who really think I am such a hateful creature.... Am I really one? Am I a disgrace to you? Knowing me is only a disgrace for you? Are you regret to know me? Do you feel embarrassed? Wish that you could turn back time a little, so that you can fix the fact that we are friends? Relatives? Is my life history affect your life, negatively? Am I a mistake to you? How much you wish that you do not know me? Am I a burden? Do I no deserve you? Until when do you plan to hate me? Do you love to see me begging for your 'attention'? What am I to you? What did I ever do wrong to you? Is it the fact that, I always go for counter current, unlike others? Do you think I am bada** enough to handle all the 'attack'? Are you getting tired of me? Are you just...

Well well, let see, there was 'Siri II', please enjoy 'her' first and don't forget to come back, k. http://nonin5.blogspot.com/2013/11/pengalaman-kerja-saye-di-bawah.html Done? Ok, let's continue.. So, you saw some moments in my life that was managed to get captured with camera. Look at the years stated above and please, if you have time, do count the duration. One can conclude that, it's not weird if I act childish. Or maybe, childish is so 'yuckie', perhaps, understanding. Hmm..sounds cooler, so yeah, I am a very understanding person. Seriously, these creatures, all of them, love me. We even met last year, and I don't think anyone would be willing to come to me, smiling and all if they hated or scared of me. I know. I know my intention, so, yeah, again, I am a person, with a freaking understanding quality. Not everyone has that, keep that in mind. Oh yeah. WHY? You think I can talk baby language? No. ...