n~5ive

Well well well, so I have not more than 2 hours before my 'ashkar' ID expire. Let me embrace this last moment. I love the system. It fits me very well, or in other word, it is something that I need. I was literally a jerk, stupid, knew nothing, no necessary life experience,  I have to say, owned too little what peeps called as common sense. Really. I may knew things theoretically, but, I lose to the world when it came to practical. There were even times when I thought that my motor skills were "impaired". Heh. I grew, 'here'. Seriously. I just love the me, during those days. I learned so much things 'here'. I just want to thank god, for destined me to be 'here'. And I believe, that is all for something for my today; a preparation. Sometimes, I can't imagine, what will I become today, if hadn't go through all those training and yeah, training. I never tried things, but 'here' I had to. Like, I had no choice but to try, and I