Perfectionist? More of remorse.
To develop an attitude where, flaws are not acceptable at all. The trait is in me since I was little, as far as I remember. The result from this? I tried nothing. I hate failure. I hate to commit mistakes. I hate every negative things around me, even when the time when I feel so negative, myself. Again, I ended up, being plain. Follow the rules, at least. I never a rulebreaker. Never. I'm straightforward. Always. Not until I learn to try things, on those accidently-joined-ashkar days. Never, until that. A cultural shocking for me, personally, but since I really got furious over a statement said by this one person, "Eeee, Wani quitter," I was like, "Dude..... don't go too far. I want to quit, not like I can't make it. I just don't want to try it, what do you know?" But that's just remain in me, until I eventually finished the course. I maybe wasn't the best product, but I just have became better than the one I was before. That's all.