Too lonely ride..
What I really understand about this journey is, no one cares. Everyone has their own moves. And I am responsible to my own's. The step I'm taking now, is too serious, happiness-killer and.....I am really struggling. Every minute, almost every second, I have to decide. Even for the lousiest thing. And I am getting tired of it. Not to say I'm quitting, but more like, giving myself a short break. I'll take whatever had happened, as the fire-starter. After all, many things have changed. It's totally on me now. The ups and downs, no matter how many people showed their care and concern, at the end, it;s me who gotta go through it. When things got to tight, it's not like it's my first time doing this, can say, I'm already at the pro level. *sigh. I gotta learn to be more calm. I'm aging, and running out of time, too. Remember, my real motive is to live happily and freely and sincerely and happily. So since these values are try