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Cousin. Yes, specifically, cousin. And let me just name it as Ya. Who is Ya? Okey, if you have read all of my entries, there were few of 'em, Ya was the main character inside it. Ya is a person. Unlike Britney Spears where she is neither a girl yet nor a woman, Ya is already a woman, at least, but still holding some girl 'traits'. And as far I remember, since she verified my memory capabilities, I started to know her when I was 8, like, got to be closer to her kinda 'know'. And so, for today, with Aidilfitri is on-going, plus with the 1st official anniversary of my 'activation' as an active blogger(well, started to slow down since few months back, because of 'society-responsibility' I should say), with a title post of ' saya sombong bila saya kurus dan berkulit mulus' (please read yea), I would like to dedicate this entry for my first best-woman-apart-from-siblings-aka-friend in life, before even Mariam Zaharan whom I always referred as '

Okey, I know I am supposed to enter my beautiful-full-with-fantasies-and-lies-dream world, but #MH17 tragedy is really get my nerve up. So, basically, when my heart starts to pump unusually fast, the eyes just don't agree to shut themselves. My deepest condolences to each and every single life that has link with the incident. Al-Fatihah to the Muslims, may you all enter HIS Jannatul-Firdaus. I think I am missing something. But I don't know what is it. Should I just let it go? Or should I bother the unknown? Perhaps, time will tell.

Just three years

Somebody just confirmed it was Jamil who had died from falling. .... ................... It was only a few days ago, I was unusually staring at him inside his cage and........... Love was in the air. When he was a child, I still remember he was the tiniest, weakest and the most non-active as to compare with his other brothers and sister, but it was him, that survived and became the healthiest while the rest was hit by a car outside the house, and another were eaten by some stray dogs before they get to become adults on once upon a night, until last night..... The night that we all just realized about his absent. Jamil... Kak Noni gonna miss the moment when kak Noni enter the house to see you lying down literally like a human, and look at me blankly... Kak Noni gonna miss your purrrrr... Kak Noni gonna miss the scenery of you licking(cleaning-purpose) your new batch of siblings lovingly as a big bro... Kak Noni gonna miss lifting the heavy you and 'me