rase kehilangan II







Opah....
Everytime Noni listens to this song,
Noni still like before Pah..
And everytime after those teary moments,
Noni's chest will experience this ache...

But,
You don't have to worry a single thing Pah,
Cos Noni never forget even for a single second,
To recite prayers specially for you, o~Opah,
And Noni hopes, 
That one day,
Somebody else will do the same to Noni,
One day,
When Noni time has come.

Opah,
Until today, 
After almost six(6) months,
Since the day you went away,
Never even once,
Noni got the chance to see you in dream,
Whereas,
This morning, 
Mama said that,
You came to hers.
Noni is so jelly, o~Opah.

Pah..
Dua tiga hari ni...
Noni rase...
Sayu je.........
Sunyi...
Sedih...
Bila Noni ingat balik,
Betapa Noni tak banyak luangkan masa dengan Opah,
Yang Noni ingat, 
Tiap kali jumpa,
Mesti Noni bagitahu Opah pasal cita-cita Noni,
Pastu mintak Opah doakan...
Itu je.....
Tapi Noni tahu,
Satu-satunya cara untuk buang semua perasaan tu, 
Ialah dengan balik kepada Allah s.w.t,
Itu sahaja.
Jadi,
Dengan kesempatan masa yang ada ni,
Opah nak tahu, 
Noni sekarang dah juz 26....
Sikit lagi nak khatam lagi.
Tapi itulah,
Noni dulu belajar ngan CD,
bukan ngan guru yang nyata...
Tapi mase tu, tade sape yang ada masa nak ajar,
walhal, Noni da tingkatan 4,
malu lah ngan adik beradik atasan, 
semua dah khatam sebelum sekolah menengah lagi...
Tapi Noni harap, 
Jangan la setan yang pandu Noni sepanjang tu,
Sebab tak lama lepas Noni khatam untuk pertama kali, sepuluh tahun lepas,
Noni terbaca mana tah,
Yang kalau tidak berguru ni, syaitan lah gurunya, Noni pun kurang ingat mana Noni tengok.
Lagi best, hari tu Noni pegi Sarawak,
Opah ingat tak Tina?
Ala kawan Noni yang masuk Islam tu,
Opah...
Kalau Opah ade, mesti Tina ni jadi topik utama kalau Noni sembang ngan Opah.
Opah...
Tiga tahun Noni 'ditahankan' dari berjumpa ngan beliau balik, 
Lamakan Opah..
Opah...
Tiba-tiba rase macam-macam dalam otak ni,
Takut point utama Noni tak tercapai pulak...

Jap......take five(5)...





Opah,
I just wanna tell that, since few month ago,
I was looking for Quran that fulfill my wants,
and..
ALAS!
Do you know where did I find one?
I found it in Kuching, Sarawak!!
Hahaha,
Who knows...
It was in Bangunan Satok to be specific.

Pah...
If I want to describe about the loneliness inside of me,
I don't know,
If its solely because of the fact that I lose you,
Or maybe, partially because of many of my old frens(I-Mariam, II-Mira, III-Hasmi, IV-Mira, V-Atiqah D., VI-Aina and VIII-Tina),
Have found their true meaning of living this life.
I don't know myself..
But basically,
Some of them are settling down already,
Which make me feel like a total loner.
After all, 
There's no way I can expect them to be like last time,
They are even a Mom to a child, no! To children!!
While me?
I can confidently say that,
Whatever I ALWAYS WANTED TO DO SINCE CHILD,
I done it,
and that's it, the WANTS........
Even my virtual life is getting boring, little by little, and day by days..
Like with an Old Fren no. I,
It's not like we fought before via FB,
but there was a slight misundersting,
That, I now feel,
MEH~
You see Opah, misunderstanding is the greatest crime of all time, because, so many things will be wasted, especially,
TIME.
Time is irreversible Pah, and I started to realize the fact, not so long time ago.
And now, she admitted that, she deactivated her FB, b'cos she doesn't want to 'fight' with me anymore.
But today,
After sometime, I called her again,
and she answered me,

"Yam, you, Kak Ya, and some others are the people that no matter how much I put a fight with, I can never ever lose you guys.
Why? Maybe it is because of the fact that you guys are like friends that I have spent the longest time ever! So, for whatever it is, I will always go back to you guys, and for I become ego, is totally not with you guys."
(Not 100% accurate since, the conversation was like many hours ago...)

I can't afford to lose them, Pah..
I am real when I am with them o~Opah.
And so,
Since none of them are in my FB friend list anymore Pah,
I feel,
So.....
Empty........

Pah....
Opah jangan risau,
Noni akan sedekahkan banyak-banyak al-Fatihah untuk Opah, k.
Semoga, 'tempat pembaringan' Opah sentiasa diterangi.

Opah....
Noni rindu sangat kat Opah...
With #leGHANI's at KLIA heading to Makkah(2009)

Makan nasik Arab kat seksyen 20 (2012)-My last pix with you, while you were still healthy.

At our Taska Tunas Intelek, seksyen 10 (2004)

At Majlis Berbuka Puasa at INTEKMA Resort (2005)







I hope to see you again, in heaven, along with the whole relatives of ours.
:'D
In shaa ALLAH.





al-Fatihah to Rahmah binti Mohd. Tahir.






(To be continued....)


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