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Terkadang, Pernah saya mempunyai fikiran bahawa, Apa yang sedang saya lalui ini, Hanyalah mimpi, Yang mana, Pada suatu hari yang hening, Saya akan tersedar daripada mimpi ini, Dan hakikatnya, Saya masih tersekat dalam jasad seorang kanak-kanak yang berumur enam(6) tahun, Yang mana, Apa yang saya mimpikan semua itu, Merupakan dejavu saya pada masa akan datang. Namun, Saya tahu, Apa yang berlaku pada saat ini, Tidak lain tidak bukan, Adalah benar sebenar-benarnya. Bagaimana saya tahu? Sejujurnya, Saya sendiri tidak mempunyai idea untuk membuktikan kebenarannya. Terkadang, Saya mempunyai angan-angan yang bahawasanya, Kesemua hal yang berlaku daripada  pertengahan tahun 2007 hingga saat ini, Adalah imaginasi saya yang tak tercapai dek akal logik saya. Bayangkan, Apa yang berlaku mulai saat itu, Saya, Nur Syazwani binti Ghani, Telah lalui satu peringkat yang, Iya, Memang pernah berangan untuk lalui kesemua pengalaman itu, Namun, Tidak pula saya perna...

I admit that I am kinda lackin' in that quality. But as I meet more and more creatures, There are more worst, than me. For example, Jamil(our family's pet), always impatiently wanna join our meal.(weird sentence, but nvm) Well, I can endure my hunger, better than Jamil does. After all, I am comparin' myself to an animal, which is also, the kingdom that I belong to, but as a homo sapiens .  My patience is usually tested, when I got an order from sum kinda other peeps, other than myself, to do sum errands, or chores or associates. And I usually irritate these peeps, by, obeyin' their orders, in a way that, they will regret, that they asked me at the first place. My patience is usually tested, when sumbody tell me, what I already knew, but they keep explainin'. This kinda peeps, I will make sum quick 'screenin' test' on his/her life background, then only I'll react. If he/she is already known as a bitch+problemat...

Is havin' a BMI value, more than 25, consider as norm? I mean, when we are normally have 22-23? :O What was I thinkin' for all these while? I shud've... hmm................................ Never mind. --------------------------------------- *bile la nak abis kain2 ni, adeh....dari jam 2100. @,.@     --------------------------------------  THANK YOU MY LOYAL READERS!!! :D                      ONE MORE PERSON!  THANKS TO ALL MY DEAR READERS :'D

Tahukah dia, Kalau mo ikut sakit hati dek perbuatan dia, Orang ni yang patut buat apa yang dia buat sekarang. Orang yang patut, BOCORkan suma yang orang ndak puas hati pasal dia dengan 'kawan baru' orang. Heh, Banyak benda yang orang MULA-MULA fikir, untuk simpan, Tapi sekarang? Orang peduli apakan, macam dia, ada dia pedulikan orang? Naaa.. What you give, dun worry, I'll give you better than how you give, cos that's my speciality. Ahahahaha. First, I thought of this, Ya lah kan, Pelik gak, dia boleh ngam ngan family orang. Orang pon, Ndak kesah bha, Dapat jugak orang channelkan focus diorg, Maksud orang, Hahahaha, Orang ni selfish bah, So, agak bertuah lah dia, bila orang ndak selfish ngan dia. Orang lain? Jangan harap la orang mo jadi macam mana orang baik ngan dia. Cume, tu lah, Di PENGAKHIRAN cita 'PERSAHABATAN' kite dua, Kire ORANG LAH YANG SALAH KESEMUA SEKALI. *tahan GELAK. Tahukah dia, Berapa banyak, Hal yang...

Sebab Noni dah sampai satu tahap, Noni tak paham. Tak paham dengan apa yang Noni tengah tengok, dengar..... Apa masalah nya sebenarnya? Sumpah Noni cakap, Noni makin kesian..... Yes, betul Noni ade mention sumwhere, Noni akan jadi macam Noni yang dulu balik. Tapi, bile Noni dah buat, Noni kesian pulak. After all, korang bukan orang lain dalam hidup Noni, and Noni jugak bukan orang lain dalam hidup korang. Noni dah dua puluh empat(24) tahun la. At least, ingat la balik, apa yang korang lalui masa korang umur sama ngan Noni sekarang. Noni bukan nak mintak harta benda kekayaan ke ape ngan korang. Noni tak heran la.........SIKIT pon Noni tak heran.... Tapi Noni tak tahu la pulak kalau korang yang heran. Korang tahu tak, balasan ALLAH s.w.t itu pasti, and kalau tak dunia, kat akhirat nanti? Korang dah kenape? Kenapa nak pilih untuk hidup dalam kepura-puraan camni? C'mon la. Ingat Noni hadap sangat ke nak ingat balik sume benda yang dah berlaku? After all, memang Noni faham la...

perut. =.=

Benda yang paling kite fikirkan sekarang ialah, korang. Korang yang kenal kite....... Dulu.... Kite selalu fikir, "sikitnye lah hai kawan-kawan aku", considerin' kite ni yang suke duduk rumah. Hmmm.... Many things occur in my life, but, not often I complain to GOD, as, after all, everythin' is written, since I wasn't even born. But still, like I mentioned, 'not-often'. My brain, has this memory of my life, since I was four(4) until today. And, I dun think that's weird, b'cos, I started to understand why. First, I accept the fact that, my life, is interestin', despite all the ups and downs. *Do reminded that, this is totally about my SOLE life. Neither his nor hers, k. I still have the memory, remain in my brain, that arwah(Al-Fatihah) Opah brought me to Tapah, usin' Hup Seng(cam name tin biskot pon hado, ntah la..yg ni kurang igt laks) Bus, and met a fren of her when I was four(4).(Miss you Opah :'|  ) When...

..at school? Or perhaps, college? Or even University??? Source: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=462445660522365&set=a.162392547194346.25859.162383720528562&type=1&theater

...SAYA........ .............PERGI. :'|

Peace upon to ya'll, my dearest Reader. This time, I'm gonna write more than what I wrote, in the previous entry called, 'Prologue'. First of all, I love beautiful, fancy, unique, one of a kind, and unusual materials. Examples? Too many. *ALERT: Please expect a random kinda writin' for this particular entry, done purposed~LY. ~Hidung mancung ~Kulit putih melepak ~Leher jinjang ~Mata tajam ~Bulu mata melentik ~Kaki panjang ~Kurus ~Bulu roma-less ~Tiada kedut ~Susunan gigi yang teratur ~Etcetera.. That's just few. I've been spendin' most of my time, watchin' Beauty Pageant Shows, since I was lil'. And, usually, TV2(RTM) had(has) it. Also, since lil', I've been exposed to TV shows like Music Awards, and all, and I tend to be some kinda Fashion Police, in silence. Oh! Typin' bout Fashion Police, there is this Fashion Police section, on every Sunday copy of The Star Newspaper, called Section Two section, yes, I used to...

191113 ~Dawn til Dusk~  Farah  done it!  Kite    is so proud of awak!!!!!!!!!!! Bio Mol~ LOVE this FAMILY SO MUCH!!!!! Thank you Auntie, Uncle and Aina, treatin' me like I am Farah, too...hihihi :* *Berangen~ Me no allow~ huuuuu~ Insaniah terbilangan~ Doter, Mamy and Dady~ Not in the pix: PAPA *BONUS: ROTU's (Tolcha, kuat jodoh aku nih ngan ROTU..haih...) --------------------------------------------------------------------- *upLOADIN': A SPECIAL memory in Sunway Pyramid

Serbamula.... no-360 Degrees Effect *nuff said

To be a good & civilised LAWYER. in shaa ALLAH.

Love, OWNself

DearEST  #3RDrotuairforceUiTMKOTASAMARAHAN , Tuan....Puan.... Boleh tak........Saya nak cakap yang....korang lah 'Parents' Wani, start life Wani July 2007 sampai lah 'sekarang'... Please........................ Korang tahu tak, ape yang Saye kesal? Saye tak babai pon korang time korg nak gi tauliah dulu, Wani(Kejap Wani kejap Saye..haih! MAke up ur mind Noni!) just pandang je korang, sebab, time tu Wani balik awal, tak ikut pun Latihan Lanjutan 2009/1, before korang gerak UTM. Wani nampak Puan Puteri, tapi.......................wif a blank stare, Wani pun berlalu pergi ke Airport.. Kadang-kadang, Wani akan ingat balik, semua bende yang Wani rase teraniaya, I mean, sumthing that I didn't commit, but, yeah...normal lah tu dalam ashkar...cume kadang-kadang, Wani tetibe nak berfikir secara bukan-askar. Tuan...Puan... Bile Wani fikir balik, korang jugaklah yang terbaik. Kawad korang paling mantap, Rank korg sangat chill ...

I started to think, If my existence in this dunya is such a liability to sum creatures. .... It's not that I am thinkin' of givin' up or quit on sumthin', Hey c'mon, I managed to stay till the end in that ashkar LIFE for three years straight, addin' a lil time at current, Just for the sake of #pride #dignity, Whatelse, t he one I'm encounterin' rite now. I've said(mentioned) these before, I worked hard to be smart. Cos I dun have this natural-since-born quality, like 'others'. I am the PEMALAS, KEDEKUT, TAK PANDAI, and many other stuff, I shud say, Stuff that 'you' referred to me, Because 'you' dislike me, since I was born. Haha. You think I live because of 'you'? If I do, .......... I may let SAKA take over the control of my body and mind. HEH.