Something that has turned me off


The last thing I would like to do is to decide. Even for the smallest thing. But, as I grew older, there's no way I could maintain to do so. But, I guess, the moment that I had to decide, was basically right on time.

I'm the most middle child out of 8. I tend to agree on everything. I almost didn't see the need of me making any decisions, because I trusted on others. Wasn't that, simple? I just disliked to.....think so much. I was, really a simple minded one. Well, that is something positive to say, by owning such attitude.

What others don't really know, something about intention here. I could say, it's the major factor. The reason of why I like to let people decide for me, was because I could blame on them, if, things went wrong. I hate responsibilities. That's why.

But, that was all in the past.

As I mentioned above, the time was just right when I fibally had to make my own decisions. Everything were just right; the age, the event, the situations.

And this month? Ouh, I thought that my 25th birthday surprise was like, yesterday, but suddenly, almost in a blink of an eye, I'll 27 within 10 days. Ouh, currently it's 0459 hours. I was born at 0409 hours, according to my birth certificate.

*taking in a deep breath.

I'm good. Praise be to HIM. Everything is good. Especially in that making decisions part. It develops well. But even the best part, I can still adjust myself to be a follower. It's like, I can shift myself according to situations, easily. It all depends on what I have decided. I know, what is the best for myself.

But, is it good for others? Especially the one I once relied too much? Well, all I see is, they have to, 'get up' from living in the past, faster. Because, time makes almost everything, change. I have to admit, there were(are) conflicts. Ouh wait, I didn't ever plan to become one, though. Wasn't it, it's their decision at the first place, and, kinda used force on me, to do that very first decision? *smirk
See, it's not my fault. Hehe.

Nah.. I am rather...grateful.

But again, is it good for others? You see, it's annoying too, sometimes. It's like, 'I know', but, it seems like, only I know. Well, it's like this, this time around, I still indirectly asking for people's opinions, but, no longer in blindly manner. If I see any, weirds in theirs, I will speak up. Ahaaaa.

The end.










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