Commitment s*cks

...and it does, still does.
But for the sake of age, culture, what choice I am left with?

To be what I am today, I won't say it's all because of my own strength, effort, because obviously, this, requires patience, patience and patience, and let's just say, fortunately, I wasn't even in desperate situation.

But still, the path seems to be, not that easy.

I believe, because God knows I can handle all these, then I am far from complaining.

But, it seems, that, some words that have been spoken to me, can still be hurtful as if I rather not to own any heart at all.

Time heals.

It does. Still does.





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