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These very two days, I've been spending my time, listening to the good old time musics, especially by my all time favourite since I was 12, A1. They have this one song, called "Caught In The Middle".

After a very long time, today, I have to deal with the situation again. Right now, I need to decide on something. The problem is, I have to choose either. It's all just today, that I finally thinking this way, where, the original plan was to grab both stuff. But, my mind was brought back to those days, where I mindlessly do stuff, without thinking the consequences to my own body, my mind, and my life. I was too greedy back then, where I eventually lost, most of the things. Eventhough I am still alive today, I have to deal with the regrets until now.

Now back to the point, where I am caught in the middle of choosing. Last time, whatever I wanted to do, it was solely my decision, whereas, these days, I consider about other's opinion. I think I have changed for better. Heh.

But still, I have no idea on what to do. Both are like, need my confirmation by at least, tomorrow. I thought of talking about this to one of the closest comrade I have, but it seems like the person has his own issue to handle, bigger issue. But how I wish I could blurt out everything that is stucked inside my chest now, and maybe he could really tell me about which and which.

*sigh

It looks like, I still hate to make decision. This isn't so hard, though, but still I need to choose. Oh my...

But I don't know what to choose.

Help...
I'm caught in the middle...

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