The road she has taken


It's been a very lonely journey. She's actually going through everything on her own. Maybe she seems to be ignorant, mindless, selfish, irritating, in anyone's naked eyes. But's she is lonely. Being her trueself, what is trueself at the first place?

If she could, she'll do whatever she wants and likes, disobeying every single rules, and ignore. But what choice does she have? She was taught to always seek for eternal happiness that can't be found in here. She does have desires. Desires to conquer the world, desires to make whatever crosses her mind that seems impossible to be true, desires to be.....

And, she has no choice but to wait...

Waiting for the eternal happiness. When? No one knows. Will she ever be selected? To be part of the happiness?

She couldn't ignore the emptiness occupying within her. The unexplainable pain. It's like volcano readily to be erupted at any moment, vomiting lava of yearns that have been buried for years. But all she could do is to wait, and wait. She was asked to wait, so that's what she does.

There's always be a time when she's almost giving up waiting, and that's when heavy tears would flow and moisten up any materials that near her eyes. She can't help, but to admit to herself that she sometimes can't be patient. She wants everything now! She wants to be heard! She wants this! And she whats those! She is so...........










sleepy. Kroooh...............

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