Battle Scar

Hope the wound heals but it never does

That's cause you're at war with love

You're at war with love, yeah

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle...

Never let a wound ruin me

But I feel like ruin's wooing me

Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree

Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me

But when you're trying to beat the odds up

Been trying to keep your nods up

And you know that you should know

And let her go

But the fear of the unknown

Hold another lover strong

Sends you back into the zone

With no Tom Hanks to bring you home

A lover not a fighter

On the front line with a poem

Trying to write yourself a rifle

Maybe sharpen up a stone

To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone

I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched

I wish that I could stop loving you so much

Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together

When all of the signs say that I should forget her

I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had

I wish that the good outweighed the bad

Cause it'll never be over (never be over) until you tell me it's over

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle...

(Then just leave then)

You shouldn't have but you said it

(And I hope you never come back)

It shouldn't have happened but you let it

Now you're down on the ground screaming medic

The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses

Shields, body armors and vests don't properly work

That's why you're in a locker full of hurt

The enemy within and all the fires from your friends

The best medicine's to probably just let it win

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love

I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much

And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together

When all of the signs say that I should forget her

I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had

I wish that the good outweighed the bad

Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle...

Cause you set me on fire

I've never felt so alive, yeah

No, hoping wounds heal, but it never does

That's because you're at war with love

And I'm at the point of breaking

And it's impossible to shake it (yeah)

See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does

That's cause you're at war with love

Hope it heals, but it never does

That's cause you're at war with love!

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

I ain't ever gonna change

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

They ain't never gonna change

These battle scars don't look like they're fading

Don't look like they're ever going away

I ain't never gonna change

These battle...

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2017...

10 years ago, I was a total noob.

I thought I've known everything about this life, but I was wrong. Because I didn't. The song is kinda my new stuff. It almost describes everything about what the heck is inside this 10 years time frame.

In this very few minutes left, before a new year replace this 2017, I am preparing myself to really let go of the past. I will completely focus on now and future, as what I've posted on the previous entry.

To think and to look back at what have I went through, there were actually more bless-full things happened, than the other way round. There were more loves, than hates. There were more achievements, then failures.

I still remember, what my father said, to all of us. 

"Korang dah umur 18 tahun, Abah lepaskan lah," he said.

When I first heard it as he told this to my eldest sister, I really couldn't wait for my turn to come. Between the eldest and me, we are six years apart, so, I waited at least that long for my 'freedom'. I kept holding too much of curiosities, that I thought, the only way to feed that attitude, is to wait until I reach that 18-years-old title. But today, right now, I'm writing this as a 28 years old human.

"Freedom"

I got it. But this time, my definition of freedom, has been upgraded. It's not like, I want freedom as in the meaning of the word itself. 

...

I actually just got back from meeting my most favorite person in the world, that is located 150km+ away from my home, so, return journey, I am so tired now. I guess, I am old by now.

I should write, but my body just doesn't cooperate with my wants.

So, basically, 2017, is another year of collecting important moments.

I am so grateful..

Thank you, 2017.

All the scars, will heal themselves. 

God's will. 

Bai!

*p/s: I'll write more in Welcoming 2018 post.

LOL.

Taken on 31st December 2017.
What more could one ask for?

GOOD BYE 2017 and the past.