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Year 1997 "Mana kelas ni....." she sobbed, while keep searching for the lost class. "Kak Yang!" she saw her big sister. It was still early and dark at Sekolah Kebangsaan Bukit Bandaraya, Bangsar Baru. "Noni lupa kelas kat mana.." she trembled and just like that, Kak Yang helped her to find her class.  I can hardly forget that moment. You know, when you get lost, those feelings like scared, afraid, stress, messy and every single negative vibe just come to you with no mercy. That time, serenity, logical, or sanity are greatly tested. Arghh.. Plus, it was my first day in a new school. I afraid to approach any human being at that time, and to see my big sister passing by, I almost thought that she's an angel in disguise. I felt safe, warm(DUH~), homey, and overwhelmed everything at the same time. But, I wasn't really the one that showing off my feeling, last time, just simply not good at it. Rather kept everything inside, and just pretend like...

Not many of them, yet, these small quantities really change my perspective on how I cannot judge peeps from their outer appearance. After all, everyone does have their emotionally-excess side and is imperfect. But..... Do they really have to be one? If one has been followed me since the very first entry without failed, one should understand that how much a 'silent' kinda creature I was. Basically, not that silent, but I never talk rubbish. It's true that, I was originally a person that always mind my words. I never irritate peeps with no reasons. Not trying to prove anything here, but, don't you think, I am actually the most normal person on earth? Hmm... I just react according to the situation. The worst is always being avoided, that's all. I don't simply mess around with others. So.....what I'm trying to say here is, WHY THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE WHO CANNOT HIDE THIR TRUE NEGATIVE FEELING TOWARD A PARTICULAR PERSON? IT DOESN'T MATTER...

What is mature anyway? *Happy Besday to Kak Yang a.k.a Mimie~ yang ke 28. Semoga baik-baik saja. The owner of:  http://mimiecupcake.blogspot.com/ Together we become more mature from today onward.

Whenever I see this word, there's only one thing comes to mind. My beloved squad. Even until today, I couldn't really figure things out. Like, what had actually happened to us especially back in last two(2) years, when I saw a conversation between two(2) persons. Well, they weren't only just persons, they were like two(2) of the closest people in my life since the years before. Or should I say, I spent my life, like literally spending my time with them. And a t one point, I even had the thought that, even my siblings knew less about me compare to them. It was like, I had finally met a bunches of people that I could be my self in a way that I always had been imagined.  These are the people that I literally opened up my heart to accept all their flaws and letting my self to be seen as a helpless one. I just decided to not give even a tiniest thought about them, their weakness, their lacking, or whatever. Even those with high temper, I even told my self, every single day, ...

Kadang-kadang, penat jugak dengan diri sendiri. Sekali dah terase, rajuknye boleh jadi sampai dibawak ke tua, walaupun belum berape nak tue sangat. Tapi, Bukanlah sengaja nak merajuk pun. Kalau dah memang hati ni saje-saje disakiti, rasenye merajuk tu agak logik la untuk dipraktikkan. Paling hangin, kalau dah memang tahu sendiri dah sakitkan hati ni, pastu dan-dan nak distract ngan bende lain, ala-ala memujuk. Rase nak lesing..... Ye lah, dah kenape nak menyakitan hati kite ni at the first place? Mencarut kang, kite ni lah yang nampak jahat. Konon-konon dah pujuk tu, bile kite ni ala-ala tak layan, abis la orang sekeliling sekali back-up, konon kite ni lah yang ego. Memang mintak kaki. Ikutkan kan hati...haih..... Ape..... Ingat dah bajet pujuk tu... Kite ni automatik boleh sengih sampai kambing pon menyampah ke? Rasenye kite ni manusia biase... Pastu, Ingat ite ni senang sangat ke nak terpujuk bilamane dah tahu, akan datang, jadi lagi................... Rasenye...

It's my parents anniversary!! Like yeah, their both birthday~! Mommy turns 55 while Daddy turns 58~! What a cool fact, aite? Sharing the same birthdate.. Well, perhaps, not exactly the same, because Abah's was actually born on the leap year. So, basically his age is only increase after every four(4) years, which means, he is only 14 years old since two years ago! Another cool fact about my family~! No wonder, we, the siblings are very cool in our own way. I wonder who'll have the chance to 'get into' us in the future, and together leading a cool life. Ahaks~ Abah is a kind that do not really love to accept gifts or doing celebrations or stuff, so, luckily, we have Mama's, then, we can celebrate his too. I mean, if it's not because of Mama, I don't think we would even celebrate Abah's birthday. Plus,  the fact that, he's birthdate is a rare one. So, let see if I have any cool memorable stuff from the past regarding today's date.. H...