Happy 2nd Annyversary

 Today marked the second year of me with my current job.  I used to love to say,"I love my job."

But today, too, I don't feel like saying one anymore. I've been doing this particular job scope since 1st of April 2014. 


Am I getting fed-up?


I can't be so sure. Because, I've been pretty messed up. My mind, my life. I don't even know where to begin. By right, everything is okey. But, I am not.


I feel worthless. Very demotivated. *sigh.


Very bad.


I'm sad. 






So sad.....




Help..




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