No-Fun


I think, I should accept the fact that I'm just a no-fun-guy. I thought, I did my best, to become a brand new me. Free from whatever kind of person I was. Though, everything seem to run pretty smoothly, who knows, this thing that I resume after keeping it under the low light for some years, thinking that I can only get back into action, once, I am confirmed enough, that I am ready.


....


But I wasn't. Or, never will I.










*sigh..








Too much things on my mind now.

Let's start with one.




TRUST ISSUE

I always don't trust anyone. How I do it, nobody has any access to my thoughts, and physically, I would rather distance myself from matters that do not attract my interest, no matter how popular the matters are. I just don't. And this, really the main point of what I meant as the boring-me. I would become the mood spoiler. But, no once cares much. But still, I tried to fix this thing, just so, I'll be much approachable. 
But after sometimes, when I started to become more relax a bit, meaning that I chose to start trusting others, that is when things started to go in an unpleasant direction. Ughhh..
From my perspective, I am done. I cannot care so much anymore. As to compare to my previous years, I would be severely hurt by such events. But this time around, I still felt hurt, but, it didn't take too long for me to really not care about it.
But if I were the people who destroy my trust, I think, it's unfortunate for them because, my 'I don't care' is really, an 'ouch' one.
I won't hurt anyone, but isn't it better if I can serve everyone? The thing that I want to do since the recent years of my realization stage.
The kind of people might think that, they are okey, but they are not. 

I just wish that, in the future, no body get to experience the after-party of messing with me. 

I don't care, really.

It's just very disgusting to see this thing.









I cannot care anymore.



I don't wish anything.


But if I could point out my anger, that would be, me, lost my smile.



I will never mingle myself with all these things anymore. 

Because you too, are no-fun.








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