n~5ive

To know that nobody is actually practice what they preach, like, a super actually one, just made realize one thing, never reveal. I think it's a new lesson of my life. I just, accidently(or a little bit of intentionally) did it. It feels like, I am now so vulnerable. Well, I thought that, I can finally being honest, but, right in front of my eyes, I saw a dishonesty. I think, I think and I think... I have yet to identify anything about the feelings, because, I have to stop doing one. Because, no one cares.. No one.

Today marks the eleventh day, after I got that freedom. Now the after-effects. *Fiuu.. How to explain this eh... Ok, that freedom is so important that I can finally sketch my next 10 years life plan. It was so close, because I was so at the edge. I can fail, too. But, Alhamdulillah, I passed it. I was so delighted, happy, smiled all day, thinking of all those struggles that I managed to face on my own, with HIS help, of course. Because, there was once, I really thought that, nothing like that freedom-day, would happen. Because, that once, was really too impossible. So many bad things happened at those time, but, yeah, it happened. Thanks to HIM. *Thank you, Allah, for turned the impossible to possible. So, yeah, the after-effect. I started to sketch my next 10 years. I see myself, as a solid and stable one in all aspects of life. Right now, the closest huge mission is gonna be executed in 5 months. The rest? Still vague, at least until today. And the closest tiny mission, ...